Last entry of the year..
Thursday, December 31, 2009
This should be the last entry of 2009 for me.. Going out later.. So I shall draft a pretty long one sharing my exp this year, some thoughts and some thank you wishes to my friends.
This year is really one that changed a lot about me i suppose; be it towards studies, love and life in general.. Even though i din have must time to stop and think.. The year was so hectic, esp this semester, it felt like being pushed along orchard road during Christmas eve! So frustrating moving forward and yet you can't turn back cause everyone else is pushing from the back.
Studies was stressful.. So much so i just feel like giving up from time to time. How I can't manage the tutorials or when i barely made it during mid terms. There's no one i'm competing with; but it just feel like there's a big stone over you, and if you get weak, it will all just come crashing down. Even though I must admit that i really did quite ok overall in studies this year, I just can't brush away the fear for the coming year ahead. Honors is just so much of a heavy burden on me now, and i'm always blaming myself for not putting in effort in year 1, and i will continue to feel so even more when it gets tough along the year.
However, due to the results i get this year, I'm more confident in myself and i know i can do it. =) The acknowledgment and encouragement I get from my friends and tutors are also of great motivation for me!.. And for this i really thank everyone that crossed my path this year through. Thank you for believing in me and willing to approach me to discuss questions raised in class. And also many thanks to friends and tutors that helped me a lot along the way.
Congrats to you girls again on graduating! I really do miss you girls in lecturers!! You girls helped me passed env econs! And special thanks to Han Wen for introducing me to all the wonderful girls. And Ching Yee for accompanying me to find Pei Fei all the time for consultation. And of cos to Pei Fei (our tutor) for all the help and not get annoyed by us.. Else we might have flung math econs! I think he might have graduated from the masters class already since i don't see him around anymore. So do hope he's doing well somewhere out there.
And of cos to my beloved Jie Ru.. For always being so supportive of me.. Listening to my whining about how tough is school work.. And all the lunch dates.. =) To Belinda whom always help me a lot at work and Pei Shan and all others friends I met this semester . Was pretty tough having to make new friends all over again.. So thank you!!
As for my social life, many things have changed as well.. My girl friends all graduating and now working for half a year.. How can that not have an impact eh?? Gatherings just gets thinner and thinner each time.. Everyone bz with their own life working, dating.. etc etc..But this of course is an natural phenomenon. Recently was playing fb, and they asked a question.. Who changed your life the most this year.. It took me sometime whether I would want to put his name down, though without a doubt, if just thinking about this year, it will probably be him. I knew him for quite sometime but we talked more this year and really think i learned a lot from him and gotten a lot from him, even though he's my junior. He's special in a way. Because he's different from most of my friends i know and I left that his way of thoughts really surprises me. I shall not mention names here but if you see this, Thank you for 2009. Though our paths may not be the same in years to come, I'll always remember you for 2009! =)
Stacey and Xue Zhen have always been my source of emotional support most of the time this year. Though not many words, but they are all felt. Many thanks for the years before, and the many more years ahead as well! Mel, Xia n Yang.. Thanks to you guys for always being there for the past 10 years as well. Though we seldom meet, even less than Stacey and Xue Zhen; we all know that we'll always share a place in each other's heart. Even if anyone of us MIA for 2/3 years, we'll still hit if of when reappear and not blaming each other for not being around. To Cheryl as well, though I only got to know you very recently. I liked her though i can't really explain why.. So mel, do treat her well! Others, not mentioned, you are remembered as well just that i'm rushing out and i still have more to write.. I'll mention you all in the new year, marking another year to our friendships! =)
This year is definitely one full of surprises, friends getting engaged! And many others attached. Making me feel so empty this festive of love. But i thought it through this 2days.. There's no point in rushing it. It's better to find someone I can stay with the rest of your life than one that will make you miserable even for a week! I'm glad i'm a rational person.. And credits to Stac, xz, vir and jul. You all are the only ones that know about it. =)
This year is really an exciting one and memorable one.. Full of fun, laughter, sadness, whining, etc etc etc. For all the people that made my year, and also those that didn't, do have a great year in 2010.. And may we create more miracles! =)
I'll post more photos after i bathe.. If i still have time.. =)
7 and a half more hours to the end of 2009 and I'm living it to the fullest!
Vivo again
Guess what! I'm back at vivo again..
Dinner with vir n jul.. Haven't seen them for so long!!! Totally missed them! Had some small talks and all..
N yeah.. touched on the topic that i prob would most like to avoid these days.. LOVE..
Maybe i am getting older.. Just wanna settle down with someone by your side and dropping you a msg from time to time asking a simple "what are you doing?" or "where are you now?".. Nevertheless, life is brutal as always.
I suddenly tot of this song "When you want it the most, there's no easy way out. When you're really to go, and your heart's left in doubt." however, i'm not too sure about.. "don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who believe it."
Anyways.. back to life being brutal.. Just feel that god is always playing a trick on me. When I want it the most, it will just never be there for me. And i missed it.. And i regret not holding on to it earlier. And i hate myself for it. Maybe i'll finally learn it. Maybe i'll just get used to it. And maybe maybe and more maybes.
Though the festive of love is wearing off me.. but i just feel that maybe and just maybe it has to do with something about me. The festive of love will only flame during this period and die off soon after and i get very dis-interested and passive about it. In a nutshell, I take things for granted. So festive of love, leave now and i'll be happier.. =)
VIVO VIVO VIVO...
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Went vivo city today. Haven't been there for quite sometime.. Ok.. not exactly that long.. but since school hols i only been there twice.. both times with my sis..
Saw some changes.. but oh wells.. How great right? hahahaha.. School's starting real soon.. I can't wait! Yeap, I miss my friends in school! Jie ru, Belinda, Vir, Li Shan etc etc..
Last Christmas
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
Once bitten and twice shyed
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me
Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying 'I love you', I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kiss me now, I know you'd fool me again
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
A crowded room and friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of eyes
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl on a cover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year
Maybe this year I'll give it to someone special
Cause last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
And last Christmas
And this year
It won't be anything like, anything like
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
I always liked this song.. =)
I'm not cut for DDR
Was at the hangout today.. played DDR on xbox.. all i get is a big FAIL!!!! hahaha.. I just can't get the signs right! ARGHHH
Take me away.. to fairyland..
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Christmas is a season of love and joy.. And also the season where people are are so vulnerable.. to wanna get attached.. SO do think carefully before you make any decisions that you may regret!
This year will be extremely tough for me i guess! 3 of my girl friends are engaged/ getting engaged! OMG!.. and my GOODIE friend is soon to be attached! I hope... hahaha..
This is really giving me the itch.. My friend was so crazy enuff to ask me go get back my ex! that's CRAZY!.. haha.. though we are good friends but we ride a different path.. it's never gonna be possible between us anymore..
OH WELLS... next semester gonna be even more bz i guess SO maybe it doesn't really matter..
Maybe not wishing may bring me better luck.. for someone to dawn upon me and taking me away to fairyland... =)
Post exams syndrome...
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I am suffering from post exams syndromes.. Argh!!!
The symptoms?...
- Sudden shivering due to fear from not having completed tutorials/assignments. ESP during Sunday nights!!!
- Waking up in the middle of the night or early morning.. Trying to search for handphone to find out the time..
- getting all stress up all day
- feel uneasy not reading or doing something.
Anyways.. in a nutshell.. I'm trying to get use to my holidays!
Exams over!`
Thursday, December 03, 2009
It's show TIME!.. slack slack slack slack slack!
